all is calm

Christmas spurs a strange feeling inside of me - the initial gratitude and happiness of the morning turned sour by the materialism thrust at you by friends and the internet. It’s an interesting thing, how something can seem like enough to make you happy until you see how others come from families able to afford more, which makes you jealous.

While this is a small, yearly struggle for me, I am so happy this year. I’m happy that I am surrounded by people that I love, and people that care about me. I have five wonderful sisters that I feel extremely close to, and I love my parents even though they’ve got struggles of their own. I’ve been home for such a short time that I’ve yet to see my friends, but I’m looking so forward to it. I feel a bond with them that, no matter how busy we get and how infrequently we are able to talk, I know will not lessen. Peter is vacationing with his family so I won’t see him for a little over a week, but he is the heart of my everything, and just knowing he’s thinking about me makes me feel so special.

2012 is approaching, and granted that the world doesn’t end (how many times will we hear a joke of this nature on New Year’s Eve? ayyy), I’m looking forward to what is to come. I’m going to be better.